Can not

I can not cry over you, it hurts to much
the tears harden
my nose runs
my hair is matted
why do you make me cry over you?
I can not cry for you, or for anyone
but I can not help it
I can not cry over you, I tell myself
it hurts to much

I will not...

I will not be anyone else
I will not try to be funny (cause it could be scary)
I will not do nothing
I will not be you helper
I will not be what you want me to be
I will not be anything but me
I will not do everything right
I will not...

Help!!!!!

I'm being submitted to tickle torture!!! My dad is trying to find out if I asked anyone to the dance or anyone asked me. He doesn't believe that nobody asked me, or that i didn't ask anyone. So who knows how long the tickling will continue. P.S. No matter what the time says this was published it's 11:19 right now.

Diamonds 1, 2 , & 3

1) Edward

fast, irresistable

running, hunting, fighting

speed, power, force, strentgh

playing, protecting, sleeping

huge, warm

Jacob

2)Love

warm, comfort

cuddling, smiling, playing

power, dream, me, you

yelling, frowning, battling

cold, hard

Hate

3)Me

small, tough

writing, reading, skating

love, space, eachother, laughs

leaving, going, running

smart, fun

you

They had to be typed like this hence they needed to be in a diamond shape, since the name is DIAMOND poems

Cinquians 1, 2 , & 3

1)Ghost

lonliness, despair, never going any where

floating in and out of time watching happiness go by

bringing a shift if air

all alone

2)Alone

Happy or sad

peaceful, restless, content

never happy or never sad

All gone

3)Vampire

misunderstood, despair, never accepted

quick as lightning to attack

swallowed up by night

Not a Monster

Haiku 1, 2, & 3

1) Streacking Blurs, Silent

soft paw, ears alert, teeth barred

stalking prey, playing

2) Mist pouring down, shadows

dangers are coming for you

wind whipping by, run

3)Flowing Babbling brook

wind blowing, bees, buzzing, grasss swaying

crickets chripping, night

Sunday Morning! (ewwww!)

Good Morning every1! Well, I've been meaning to post some poems and now I will. In school we finally started out poetry unit soo... here's some of the ones I wrote for them. They include Cinquains, Diamonds, and Haikus. Enjoy!

omg,omg, OMG!!!

Twilight teez is making drum roll....cause it super-duper important!!!!!!!!!!!! Bella's engagement ring!!!!!!! Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited!!! I just can't hide it. Cough, Cough, srry had to sing it's just so COOL! check it out! http://www.twilightteez.com/

Important News

I'm coming to see u!! No not you, you, but my friends in NC!! Horray!!!! Yes, I'm talking about you Nolan.( Neal, and Hunter)if u read this. I'll be coming torwards the beginning of July(around the 4th) or maybe a little early. Hope u read this. P.S. Every one should check out

http://www.myspace.com/toxinrnj

this web page it rocks!!!!!!Hehehe

Friend

I call you, you call me

I'm happy to call you friend

I wish I was always there for you

Like you were always for me

I tell you important secerts

you tell me yours

I miss you, and hopefully you miss me

I will never leave you friend

even if you can't see me I'm always there

I will never leave you, friend

Friends

I have many friends and in my next post i will write about on (guess who!!!)

Friends

Hell's Angel

Not all angels are nice

From Hell you see the flames

leaping, leaping higher and higher

you see a black form coming

it breaks through the flames

In all its Hellish glory

It cries out in triumph

Sending tingles down your spine

Not able to look away

With it's see through skin

Wings of leather

Black hair flowing down to its shoulder

Then you hear it

the sound of a thousand horrors

every bad thing you've seen and heard coming back to mind

"Caitlin"

it calls bekoning you forward

you must go

"Caitlin"

Twlilighters!!!!!

Aperently this our new name guys! As a fan of many series I must say the Twilight is my most favorite followed by the Rachel Morgan series. But this our new nick name and I'm pround t wear it! I can't attach the vidieo so if u go to stephenie meyer's website is't the latest new but the last clip once u follow the link. Check it out.

Music

Pounding, vibrating, blood coursing

Screaming, hearing the bass

minutes slowly passing by

the clock is ticking,

it's only a matter of time

Following the beat,

one, two, three, one two three

faster, and faster yet

is it actually music at all?

The Pounding,

The Vibrating,

The Blood Coursing,

is it the music?

Main computer

Hey every1! I said I would post some of my book and I will! But... our home computer is a butt, the internet isn't up so I can't post it. So now you ask how am I posting if the internet isn't up? I'm using my Dad's laptop. When the computer comes up I will post the book! Well, TTYL!(in a way? sorta!? hehe)

I'm back

Hey everyone! I know this is my second post in a while but.....never mind I don't know what was holding me up on posting. But guess what! We(I) may have a very famous lady visiting this blog!!Drum roll please...Kim Harrison!!!! Yeah! So, I just wanted to say thanks for visiting (if she does) Also, please leave a comment if you visit(please!) By the way, if you visit(kim harrison, that is) I think that your the only person besides the friends and family that I've told to visit!!! So thanks!!!!!!! To everyone who veiws this, you make me feel more special than I already am(hehehe, I just made fun of myself)! Next, post I will post my favorite part og Witch's Luck (my book) in my very own messy handwriting!!!

Kim Harrison Thinking Process

Thinking, Thinking,Thinking

coming up blank,

I reach and turn on the music

head bobbing to to it

fingers tap, tap, tapping

Then pop, there it is,

I wrestled it down ,

and succeeded!

There it is one page closer

one more line complete.

So she starts again,

thinking, thinking, always thinking.

Flower Girl

There once was a flower girl,

who spoke all the languages, 

she spoke to the wind, grasshoppers,

and the occasional faerie. 

They would flutter by and say "Hi"

With the beautiful outfits of green leaves

and grass 

But the flower were the most beautiful of all

with the baby soft petals, and colors all the better

with vibrant reds and blues. Once the flower girl knew all the 

Languages, but she forgot to tell me how too speak the now forgotten 

language

she went and forgot to tell me how to speak to all the colors hues

She was once a flower girl but she went and grew up , but forgot to tell me

how to speak 

Mornings Call

Crystal drops from the heaven above

rest peacefully, on the royal blanket

of the green, green grass

the faerie ball has come to an end

in mornings blood red light

floating slowly, still groggy

from the nights events

to the little hollows

that they call home

to sleep it off for the next ball tonight

still to come when the moon shows her face

to the world, to give them light

 in the dark of night

Joy

What a feeling, what a day

Knowing loved ones are no at bay

coming forth

to embrace such a feeling

oh so gay

what a feeling, what a day

Black & White

Black and White,White and Black

Evil and Good, Good and Evil

but what about gray

what about what's in between

Doing good for evil, doing evil for good

Black for white, white for black

Good and Evil, Evil and Good

White and Black, Black and White

Black & White

Hunger

It growls, grumbles and complains

sapping strength Leaving an

empty shell behind

In hiding

Running, dodging, ducking

trying to escape all the questions

Pouring down on me

falling 

being crushed by question

trying to hide

going in hiding

trying to escape

Poems

No new poems today (sorry) I've got a lot on my mind. that I'm sure your dying to know but I'd rather not say what it is! Tip: go tell some1 u love them!(but only if you really mean it)

Don't you hate it when people keep asking you whats wrong, but NOTHIGS really wrong or if something is you don't want to tell them because A) you'll end up crying B) you'll end up yelling(or mad) C) they just won't understand. Well, I know how you feel REALLY annoyed!

Poems

Blonde hair soaked to the roots

white sundress clinging to her

yet she just sits there

Her face tear streaked

she sits under her own rain cloud

watching other happy children play

her sky is gray

so is the rest of her world

but as she lift her eyes

with her long damp lashes

she sees him

walking towards her

Is it worth it?

Does she dare

He sits down in front of her

As she wraps her arms around him

her personal rain cloud disappears

"I miss you" she said

As she woke up with her rain cloud getting bigger

She raises her long damp lashes

and cries

Her

I am her

Can you it?

See her?

How she walks

Always watching,

Listening

See her sit

See her listen to music

She's escaping

Going to another world

where everything is alright

A world where everthing goes right,

and nothing ever goes wrong

Can you see her?

Always watching,

Always listening

Never at peace

Poems : you

The poems I titled "You" I'm retitling and calling it "Seeing" and in the where it says "A msitake,a hope, or lobe" yeah that last word in suppose to be "love"

You

You see me but are you really looking

I try to show you what I am

What do you see?

Do you see a happy child?

What am I too you?

Do I shine through and make you happy?

Can't we all be happy?

Do you see me?

I'm watching you to see

if you are watching me

But, what do you see when you look at me?

A mistake, a hope, or lobe

You see but I wonder if your really looking

Life Alive

I watch from a distance

Never coming forward to claim what I deserve

I watch them play and grow

Getting feelings I'll never know

I try to fit in

I try to make you see

But all this time you never saw me

I don't participate

I'll watch your love for them grow

That love I'll never know

I try I do

I try to make you love me

But that I'll never know

I ask myself everyday "Do they love me?"

Who loves you?

Do you think they could love me too?

Cause everyone wants someone to love them

And I want you to love me

Just say "Yes"

And then I could be happy

Leaving Love Behind

I'm going

I'll run away

Just can't stand it

I fell the hate and disappointment closing in

I'm squashed, forgotten, pushed aside

Never put first, always cast aside

Don't follow, all you'll bring is misery

I want to be happy, won't you let me?

I don't want a shower of gifts

or anything

I want you, I want love, hugs and kisses too

Won't you say you love me?

Like I have always loved you

Soul Star

Blackness flowing, growing never slowing
Inside and out I can not escape
I'm falling, bawling, stalling
Make it stop!
the screaming , yelling
It burns, yet I yearn for its comfort
All I ever knew falling through
I never saw it coming but there he goes
It all comes crashing down
The fake family facade
I run but not fast enough
I wave and yell
But he won't come back
My eyes burn from wind and tears
I bow my head in defeat,
As I watch my soul star disappear

Exploring the Arts

If u already haven't u totally should check out my friends blog. She has the deepness that I lack(which I'm totally jealous of!!!!) So after this I'm going to give a whirl at writing a poem for the pit of my soul! Whooho!

Friends!!!

I have awesome friends!!! My friend has a blog that is cooool, that u should totally check out! It's called...(drum roll)...Exploring the Arts!

The Afternoon?

I couldn't think of a good title so whatever. Everything is going well!(hopefully?!) Nothing too exciting happening besides what I've posted. I got a 84 on my Spanish test & a 97(i think) on my Home Ec. test Oh, yeah, yearbook ended today, so we had a pizza party! That was fun. Then, we were all crazy running around outside and I watched our baseball team play. Then, my cousin FINALLY e-mailed me back(u know who u r!)

Twilight

To all the fans of Stephenie Meyer-You Rock!(because I'm 1 too!) I love the books sooooooooooooo much! Annnny way does anyone know how to get international copies(ex. the chinese & Japanese 1s) I ask alot of questions on my blog,huh? If your on the East Coast I'm sure you'll agree with me Stephenie Meyer should come here more often(cough, Rhode Island, cough, cough!)

Alot of people don't like the China cover but I LUV it! So poo on u people who don't like it!

P.S. If Stephenie evers reads my blog I'd be sooo... I can't even think of a word for it!

Time

Time flys when your doing stuff...in general! I just took care of my 2month old bro for a while.(kinda annoying!) Now I'm starving!(word to the wise always keep easy snacks within reach!) that's all I really wanted to say......besides does any1 know or like Smile Empty Soul and if u can get the Anxiety cd and why I can't find it on itunes is really REALLY annoying! OMG, a lady just walked by my window, u should c the hat she was wearing! It looked like her head was a giant red star! Hehehe!

Time

Life Sucks...I mean what a nice day(yeah right!)

Last night my Grandpa was admitted into ICU so I slept over my Grandma's, that was fun(but sad!) VERY, Very sad!!! So, I didn't have to take my math quiz(big whoop!) because every1 in the class failed it so we get to take a different 1 tomorrow(yeah fun! yeah right!) Also how to tell if a guy likes u!???? I feel so bad for him and he was so sad I didn't know what to do! (Cause I like him but he dosen't know it) What to,what to do!??! GoodNews: I like the book I'm reading.

Chorus

It turned out the group that performed 1st was us! Right, between our third and fourth piece the fire alarm went off! So we all had to go outside and then go back in. The same thing happened to the next group. It was really cold the second time and it was raining again. But everything else was fine. Now, I hve to study(yuck! :) )

Apirl Fools!

Morning!(not)

Today my chorus group is going to Mass. to perform in front of judges. The bus ride takes an hr. to get there and then we are the last group to perform so we have to sit for 2 more hrs.! Talk about boring! But then we're going to lunch and my moms going to take me to B&N!!! Whoooah!